all the sad parts of this year so far are summed up both in that stupid month and in these stupid lyrics right here:

 so far from me stands a man known as disease. he’s shaking all the hands of the people that he meets. and now you just dont see me anymore. now ive been losing everything. you just dont see me anymore. ill say goodbye. since you left she’s a mess. she regrets all the things that she could have said but… we fall asleep, never think about anything. we wake to the sound of a phone as it hits the ground and now. you just dont see me anymore. now ive been losing everything you just dont see me anymore. ill say goodbye. and oh at the wake, at the wake, i will turn to see a face. just a face, just a face, so surrounded by a name. what a name, what a name, and you never want to change. what you gave, what you gave, never want to let go. so surround me, i need anything and you you’re everything i want to live like i did before all this hit. to sleep in your arms, to think, we’ll never fall apart and oh. you know its, you know its such a drag to live your life for a heart attack. to never get a second chance to say goodbye, so say goodbye ill never get to try. you just dont see me anymore. now ive been losing everything. you just dont see me anymore. ill say goodbye.

i’ve been losing everything, you just don’t see me anymore. i’ll say goodbye.

since you left, she’s a mess, she regrets all the things that she could have said, but we fall asleep, never think about anything. we wake to the sound of a phone as it hits the ground.

at the wake, i turn to see a face, just a face surrounded by a name, what a name. and we never wanna take what you gave. never wanna let go.

so sorround me, i need anything, and you were everything. i wanna live like i did, before all this, get to sleep in your arms and think “we’ll never fall apart”

you know, it’s such a drag, to live your life for a heart attack. to never get a second chance to say goodbye. i’ll never get to say goodbye.

trying to find truth in words, in rhymes, in notes, in all the things i wish i wrote because i feel like i’ve been losing you. each night it ends too soon, you don’t hold me like you used to, and your eyes look like they’ve seen too much.

it’s always some excuse, too tired, too obtuse. you look so far removed. this time i feel i’m losing you.

i never finish phrases i mispell, open arms are prison cells. when i said i hate what i’ve become, i lied, i hated who i was. so when you start to wonder about the pain in my throat, well don’t you ever, no never ever, speak for someone you don’t know.

what’s left to lose? i’ve done enough. and if i fail, well then i fail, but i gave it a shot. and these last three years, i know they’ve been hard. but now it’s time to get out of the desert and into the sun. even if it’s alone

you said it was suicide, on the fourth of july. i say it saved my life. and now i hope you’re alright.

it’s a shame what your father did to your brothers head, he smashed it with a telephone. and your mother got scared and locked the door and you were only four but lord you remember it.

so now you’re scared of love, but i’m here to tell you that love’s not some fucking blood on the reciever

love is speaking in code

it’s an inside joke

love is coming home.

i never finish phrases i mispell, open arms and prison cells

when i said i hate who i’ve become, i lied, i hated who i was

so when you start to wonder about the pain in my throat

don’t you ever, no never ever, speak for someone you don’t know

well honey your feet, they ain’t as pretty as you think

my teeth are all still crooked on the inside

and could you please leave all your clothes on and let me sweat this out

when i said ‘i hate who i’ve become’, i lied. i hated who i was. so don’t you ever speak for someone you don’t know.

because words, like girls, get bored and run away

if work permits - the format

let’s cause a scene, clap our hands, stomp our feet, or something